Tuesday, September 11, 2012

the most on-edge day of the year.

It's so strange to look down at the calendar, over at my phone, or even in my email. It all tells me what day it is, and I can't believe it. September 11, 2012. Has it really been eleven years already? I still remember exactly what I was doing the morning it happened. In fact, I can recall the whole day (not hard, since most of it was spent on the couch, glued to CNN...)

The lighting was different; it was lit for tragedy, and I should have known. It was the same eerily beautiful bright blue outside in Kansas; the same way it was the day my step-dad died a few years before. For once, I was actually taking my time getting ready for school, because my first class had been cancelled (he had a wrestling convention to go to; why do I remember THAT?!?!). I was in my bathroom, straightening my hair when my mom started screaming for me. I threw down the straightener, and ran to the other side of the house, only to sit down next to mom in silence.

Somehow, after the towers fell, I went to class, only to be met with mass confusion. They cancelled classes, and I went back to watch CNN for the next week. Waiting for answers, waiting for a miracle.

The world changed that day, and I changed with it. I grew up. I found fear. Sometimes, in the back of my mind, I wonder if today will be our last. If when I say "I love you" to my son or husband, it'll be the last time I'll get to hear it back. Yes, the terrorists have infiltrated my brain, and I hope one day, the world will find peace, enough to bring back our peace of mind.

I will never forget.

Where were you 11 years ago?

8 comments:

  1. Thank you for sharing this, and for your honesty.

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  2. Was just talking about where I was 11 years ago today. It was one of those days you didn't think anything out of the blue would happen. So calm and peaceful. Such a horrible thing. The families of all those people finding the strength to keep going to this day.

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  3. Very well written. I was at work teaching in an elementary school. We are located VERY NEAR a nuclear power plant, so our building almost evacuated by bus to another school district building an hour away. The area authorities were afraid the power plant could also be a target. We did not evacuate, thank goodness.

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  4. My husband and I were just boyfriend and girlfriend at the time. We were driving to TAFE and heard it over the radio. "This can't be real?" we said. After a day of studying, that night at dinner we watched it on the news. Mindblowing. These kinds of things are only supposed to happen in movies. 3 years later we got married on the same day, adding some happy memories to an otherwise sad day. x

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  5. It was night time here in Australia. I was working in the VIP bar at the Casino. I stood in front of the TV for most of my shift crying :(

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  6. I was on my way to work and in the car when i heard it on the radio. My husband was already at work and in a meeting. I called him and begged them to all listen and turn on the tv. What a horrible, horrible day.

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  8. As for 11 years ago, my husband and I were married for 2 years, living in our little condominium, and not yet parents. I enjoy your blog! I like your narrative tone, and the way you cover a plethora of topics.

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